Cravings!

I'm craving foods that do not exist in Michigan, like Polish Boys and Romanburgers.

This is a Romanburger. You can get one from Mr. Hero. Along with a Hot Buttered Cheesesteak!

So tasty and delicious! I may try to make some for dinner but they don't have this kind of bread in Michigan either. It's Orlando Bread. So there's 2 burgers, with swiss american cheese, topped with grilled genoa salami and grilled italian luncheon loaf, served on a bed of lettuce, onions, and tomato with a sprinkle of oil and spice, and MAYO. AWESOMENESS ON A BUN.

This, my friends, is a Polish Boy. Complete with obligatory fries with sauce.

This beautiful creation is a smoked sausage, preferably deep fried, placed in a bun, topped with fries, bbq sauce, and cole slaw. MMM mmm good. DELISH.

The best ones are also served on Orlando Bread. That's a Cleveland thing too. OMG!! I just read online that I can buy it here at Busch's market!!! And Hollywood Markets!!!

For some odd reason, I am also craving Pineapple Faygo. I can't get enough of it! That and Dr. Pepper, which goes great with honey buns. Specifically, Little Debbies. I could drink the Pineapple Faygo by the gallon, though. It is SOOO GOOD.

What else...ice cream sandwiches. Which is odd, because I am very lactose intolerant.

I'm hungry now. Time to go eat!

Flutteriffic

So, I finally felt the flutter. I felt it Saturday night but I wasn't sure if that was what it was or not. I just felt it again, and I'm sure. It felt...weird. Almost as if the way I was sitting, I was smooshing the kid, and it wanted me to move up off of him! or her. If I could have heard it, you know that sound your big wheel made? Or that sound the wheel makes on the Price is Right? Or, a card in bicycle spokes? I think that's what it would have sounded like. But slower.

So now, I'm more on top of the hormone thing. I find that the worst thing you can do, though, is call me before 9 am. Now, I don't have the patience for court shows anymore. The ignorance is appaling. I am trying to not flip out as much as I want to. I just find myself saying things sometimes and being very short tempered. I don't have it totally conquered but I'm doing better.

I'm still not ready, though.

A sad day

I don't know if I am completely hormonal or what.
I have been through the gamut of emotions today.

I am seriously worried...I guess because I look at my life and wonder how am I going to raise a kid if I don't have a concept of what to do with my own life?

How am I going to raise a child if I have no idea what to do with my own life?

I am tired of going from one idea to the next.
I don't even want to go to church tonight, because I don't feel like I want to keep hearing the message. It does not seem to be panning out for me.

I'm not saying that God is not at work in my life, because I know He is. I'm just tired of not knowing what move to make next. I keep asking Him what is my purpose and I'm not getting an answer.

I feel kinda...worthless? I'm not working, I can't make any of the moves I'd like to, and I feel like I have no power. And, I have no money. This I cannot deal with.

Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. For now I need to take a nap.